Category: Inner Essence Journey

My country is #50!

dangerI found that the USA is #50 out of 163 countries that were evaluated as being dangerous.  We fell right after El Salvador and right before Rwanda.  I looked this up last night after the Las Vegas, Nevada shootings.  When I selected the top 100 most dangerous countries I wasn’t even sure if the USA would be one of the 163 listed.  When I saw it was #50 I felt a pit in my stomach.   It was from a 2017 publication of Atlas and Boots:  Travel with Abandon.

I have lived here all my life.  The last few years have brought lots of doubt and fear.  Do I feel safe here?  Should I try not to be in large crowds?  When I am at the airport I fell anxious to get out of there.  But being on the plane doesn’t feel any safer.

I have been writing about and practicing Living from My Heart.  Days like the last few cause me to believe even stronger that everyone needs to be practicing their Inner Essence Journey or some practice that brings the love and compassion to the forefront of their lives.  Children need to learn this at a very young age.  Maybe, then, we would not have as many angry, fearful people in our country, in our world.

There are days where I feel this is such a large daunting task and ask myself what is the point.  But, I answer immediately that the point is to persevere with love and compassion.  We need to have so much love and compassion in the world that there won’t be a list of top 100 most dangerous countries.

I appreciate so much more now!

IMG_3615After being through Hurricane Irma I found myself loving and appreciating everything.  Before I took so much for granted and my STOP behaviors were active so much (wanting, holding, assuming, and monitoring).  Now, I am so thankful for my family and me to be alive and safe!  I notice more and see the beauty in all.  For now, my STOP behaviors are still.  Instead of getting frustrated by all the little lizards zipping around under my feet I greet them with a smile.  As I look out my window and see the beautiful lake with homes around it I feel content.

The loss of life and homes etc. is saddening but I feel this experience has given me a new appreciation for life….. my life.

The day after I went to the beach…..



This is a challenge for a lifetime!


I am continually practicing letting go of attachments especially around my life.  I am working on letting go, enjoying the moments fully and trusting that everything is perfect for now.

This is not easy for me.  I am a planner and when I plan I become very attached to the outcome.  I remember hearing someone once use the analogy for life as putting a canoe in a lake.  When you put the canoe in the lake you usually have a destination in mind.  You begin paddling to that goal but if the currents or whatever steer your canoe to another bank on the river don’t fight it.   Enjoy the ride and see where the journey takes you.

As I practice putting my canoe in the lake and seeing what occurs I am always pleasantly surprised to see how perfect the destination is for me at the time.   I still catch myself paddling like crazy to keep myself on my path towards my original goal but I am slowly noticing my attachment to that goal and letting the currents of life take me where I need to be.